I am currently listenning to " If i were a boy" by Beyonce, and i guest for a better punch line it could not be more appropiate.
I am not one i know that much but most time i wish my parents would have tought of birth control, or at least discussed it prior to having so many children they clearly did not wanted.
Do i have dreams ?
Maybe. Do i still wish for something? Sometimes. But i am holder now and even when i wasnt i didn have a single dream appart from...
And that is not a dream.
So today i will start something i have never done before i will allow myself the possiblity to consider dreaming.
There is a cemetry in the island in the town my father was born , where he is buried if you think about it that is my dreams rest.
On a green hill in a box with a corpse of the only person i ever loved from my family appart from my eldest sister, i am not suprised i dont dream...
I guess if i did i would give myself nightmares.