Some may wonder why i do this. Why i need to or even want to. Its not even really want anymore its need, its an addiction. With no parents home and friends all busy with their parents, but not me. I sit in my room, one shot, two shots, three shots, more. One joint, two joints, one line, more. Stoned and wasted. I feel amazing. I felt so in the moment, so  amazing. I felt free. I wish i could stop and feel like this some other way, swimming, bike riding, rock climbing? No i was addicted, this was my routine. Come home, drink get stoned. 

What would everyone say if they found out?! Hell , probably cast me as an outsider , no thanks. Who knows what whack jobs live in outside the city walls. This city, Claymore, is all I have ever known and all I will know. Maybe we all deserved to be an outsider, besides we all cant be perfect... can we? We all haven't ever told lie, or been 5 pounds over weight, did a little worse on a test than normal, said something we shouldn't have, done something stupid.. could they? I wish I could meet one perfect person. Just one. Ask what its like, to always feel watched. What its like to not be able to eat that piece of cake without gaining a pound. What its like to study every day. Work out and stay in shape. Be worried not to say you like the wrong show or hate the other show. I know i'm not perfect and i still have to worry about half those things.. sorta. 

But for now, i remain imperfect, stupid, stoned and wasted. I just stay in my house eating, working out, watching all the wrong shows and all the right ones cause who can control what you like? Not the neighbour, or parents, or friend. Its you and you alone. Just gotta wait for this stupid place to learn that too.

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Summary:
Lily Davidson is an ordinary girl, she goes to school, does well, has many friends, is out going and pretty, has a job a boyfriend, a place to call home. But its what happens in the place she calls home that will cast her aside.
Greg Anderson is seemingly normal... on the inside. Once was a jock and loved by everyone and had girls clinging to him is now cast aside and frowned upon after getting scratched up and scared falling when rock climbing. When looks was all you had, whats left of you when its taken from you.
Luke Hawkins is killing himself day by day. Its not his looks or home problems that cast him aside its what he does to himself that does. Will his desire kill him or prove him stronger than ever before?
Megan Smith is fading away. With her need to be accept and lack of it she tries to eliminate herself from the game. Adding a mysterious edge to her people started to accept her and get close to her. But when she lets someone too close and discovers her secret she's instantly an outcast.
Jacob "Jake" Coleman has been an outcast his whole life. Born with a condition he could not control , he was casted out at a very early age. He has seen cast outs come and go as they struggle to get back in , he himself focusses on helping them too but never helps himself. Will his unconditional love and kindness be the thing that brings him back into the world or leave him an outcast forever with broken dreams and promises.
Candice "Candy" Price is 100% perfect. She is seemingly flawless or so it seems. In a place so judgemental the smallest of things get you booted out. After exposing a few people as outcasts she has the hardest time getting accepted even as an outcast.

updated Dec 10 '10 by BrookeCacophony