A changing point in my life...
I went to a party to have fun, but if I only knew I was about to throw it away...
"WHAT IS GOIN ON", "STOP DANCING" YOUR BRINGIN TO MUCH ATTENTION TO YOURSELF" DONT THROW ME AWAY" THEIR ARENT READY FOR THIS" I DONT WANT TO DO THIS" I CANT CONTROL MY BODY" SNAP BACK D!!" LOOK WHAT YOUR DOING" "I DRANK TOO MUCH" MY SPLIT IS COMING OUT" "EMERGENCY! EMERGENCY! NO ONE LOOK AT ME. WHERE IS MY EMERGENCY ESCAPE BUTTON" SOMEONE SNAPP ME OUT OF THIS, I DONT WANT TO THROW IT AWAY"
I couldnt do anything about it, Detre was no longer in control of my body, my deep dark secret of a split personality (Drey) was coming out and undoing what i took 3 years to bulid. I squash rumors about, I cant let him take over my body...
Drey says: "D! sHUt UP, yOU wOUld HaVe DrAnk So MUch If YOU WerENT ScARed Of ME. i'M DoiNG WHat YoUR sCArED TO dO, bE YOuRSelF.
I responded, "Be myself, I am myself. I love myself..."
"sO wHY ArE You scaRED Of ME?"
"Because the world isnt ready for me... us, The world pushes people to come out, but they dont protect them"
"NO prIDE *tisk tisk* yoU HAve to Be..."
"To Be what? I have pride in myself, as a strong African American man that loves...
"LoVEs what a WOmaN?"
Drey took fully control of my body at this party and grabbed a dude I've been secretly crushing on.
"Stop!!!" I yell in my body to the top of my lungs. "Don't do this... I work too hard in my reputation to be label. Stop DREY! You are taking this tooo far!
"SAy It D!"
"No! I can't..."
"wHAt are yOU?"
"Dont do that Drey! I told you I can't say something like that."
"WELL aS thIS AlcOhOl still hAs me In Control, I WiLL Do As I PleASE!"
"NOOOO!!!!' I yelled but it was too late.
Drey took complete control and I was just a small voice in my head. He dance with another man infront of my peers, co-workers, and fellow students, and he was loving it, I saw each and every facial expression when they formed a circle to watch the two gay guys dancing in the center of the club. I had none of my close friends their to stop him... it was too late, people were freaking out, cause sweet and goofy Detre is drunk and dancing with a man...
Damn... he threw it all away...