I'm so fucking...angry. It isn't the kind of angry that makes you want to be proactive, or the kind of angry that makes you want to change the source of your anger. I don't want to change the source- I want the source to get the fuck out of my life. I want to bury his fucking name and never pet it see the light of day again. I don't want him to get hurt, or die, or any of that stupid fucking hyperbolic angsty bullshit. I just want peace of mind, and that can't fucking happen when his name gets mentioned to me every fucking day. He had the audacity to ask our friends if I was really "that pissed off". Are you shitting me? You told my friends that life was easier without me. You tried slut-shaming me for shit I HAVEN'T EVEN DONE. You said you had been "absolved" of me- so tell me, why shouldn't I be pissed off?
I honestly just can't get a fucking break at this point. I just want silence, but the world keeps fucking screaming his name. Fuck him- and fuck anyone who decides they want his name to come up around me. I don't have time for all of this tupid SHIT.