Since I was able to understand what had happened to me. I'd had a very blunt approach to it. Telling people never bothered me, unless I really didn't like the person. I could honestly walk up to a stranger who looked okay and say,

“I was almost raped when I was eleven” and then walk away.

It's describing the actual event and my emotions at the time that are hard.

I have no clue why I'm writing this, I think it was to do with Cassandramorrow's bravery and thinking maybe I should talk about my issue already.

But mine just seems so fricken complicated!

I could properly re-account all the different events in my life its effected. But I wouldn't tell them in order cause my memory is that messed up. When I'm telling a story I say it happened when was 7/8 or 13/14 cause its that bad.

I guess it depends on if anyone actually wants to know. And if my head will let me. Though I admit, like with lyrics, writing feelings has always been easier than saying them.

I'll try.

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All names used be fake here. and yes, these are my real memories, judge me kindly.

I might throw in lyrics i haven't been brave enough to post with the others here by the way.

Wonder if i should add old dairy rants?

Actually wrote a description of the experience for the first time, but I won't post it cause no one really wants to read it I'd imagine xD But it helped, writing about it, weird o.O

updated Jan 30 by Cat_Monty