As all this went on, I was going through the journey of finding my emotions again. Feeling again. All that good stuff.
I remember one time in particular when I was feeling especially sad about Idina's moving away. I went upstairs and lay on my bed, just feeling the sadness. Because as unpleasant as it was to feel sad, I mean, come on! I was feeling! Really feeling! It was the first time in a long time that I'd felt emotions so deeply, and I exulted in it. I lay there for a long time, rejoicing in the fact that I had finally found my emotions again.