It was around that time that I realized what is more important to me than almost anything else in the world:
I need to feel respected. Like I'm someone worth being proud of. Like I'm worthy of, well, respect.
Alot of my jealousy roots back to feeling like I'm inadequate. Like no matter what I do, I'm not enough. That's the main thing about my spiritual OCD, too. It all goes back to the feeling that I'm not enough. And when I feel inadequate, it means I don't deserve respect.
I think that's what bothered me about the blog post.
I felt disrespected.