Hole in my chest

 

My scheming is done.

There’s nothing I can change:

My hair ,my clothes ,my intensity.

It’ll never be enough or always be too much.

So we’ve grown, we are still human.

Still need the same things love, trust, touch

I was the one...

The one you always said gave you everything

What more could you need?

 

Ch

There’s a hole in my chest.

The blood bleeds out leaving me chilled and blue.

I can’t get warm.

Even in this sweater, that doesn’t smell like you.

You’ve taken every trace of you.

If I had a hallway I’d shout.

And let it echo.

Nevermore.

Nevermore.

Nevermore.

 

Where’s the kindness in a clean break?

I want so much more.

I deserve my happiness.

My dream come true.

You were it!

But in my dreams it was mutual.

Only tears of joy.

Growing seeds of hope.

 

ch

 

Nothing.

There’s almost nothing here.

A desert with no oasis.

I’d even hope for a mirage.

An illusion of unconditional infinite love.

But there is no escape.

No numbness.

Just the cold truth day after day.

 

ch

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