I am currently working towards my degree in clinical psychology and I have a pretty dark view of what humanity can and does to each other. I could say in words how much I dislike being human, instead I will simply say most times I am just scared.
At this specific time I am scared of failing, a test , myself . I am scared of losing my mind, but hey been there done that got a label of bipolar disease, so that is old news.
Labels make feel gross, fat , ugly, old, but most they make me feel stupid and I do not understand laughter.
I want to die, I hate being alive.