My Only Savior,
It's all I've been knowing ever since that one day of turning back to emotionlessness. It's becoming more and more serious with every day.
God, I am SICK and TIRED of this. It's pulling me away from You and making a separation. I'm scared, God. Really, really scared. Or at least, I think I am. It's hard to tell when you don't really have a heart anymore.
The last thing I want to do is sound like I'm whining, God. I have alot to be thankful for - like the fact that You kept me from throwing up last night!
But Lord, please...give me a DESIRE to overcome this numbness!
Please, see me through! I need You to see me through!