God of Mercy,
It's been so long since I've felt Your joy and peace. It's all my fault...all my fault. My heart is chained up, all because I've done too much to strengthen my defenses. Ever since Idina's anorexia and the constant trauma of being rejected by my friends, I've been - both consciously and subconsciously - pouring my all into becoming the strong person I thought I wanted to be.
And now, I wonder...will I have to go through life...emotionless?