Ohhh my word. Seriously, I'm starting to wonder if it's too late for me. I thought I felt forgiven, but the condemnation is right back at me, full force.
I can't do this, God. I can't keep going like this. I can't live like this. I don't know what kind of a lesson You're trying to teach me. Whatever it is, I think I've learned! I can't keep feeling like this for much longer.
I feel so condemned. I feel like I've fallen from grace somehow without even knowing it. Like You've turned against me. And I don't even know why!
I just can't believe You when You say I'm saved. My heart is constantly feeling unsaved. I don't know why, Lord. I don't know why! Not even [my favorite song] is helping, and it ALWAYS did before.
I WANT to believe, God! Please, forgive my unbelief!