08-15-2011, part two
YOU SING OVER ME! YOU REJOICE IN ME! YOU LOVE ME!
YOU DELIGHT IN ME! YOU FIND BEAUTY IN ME! YOU! ARE! AWESOME!
And yet, You love me. You're the biggest Thing that ever existed. That will ever exist. In comparison, I'm smaller than an atom. Smaller than a billionth of an atom. Simply too small to be called ANYTHING.
And You LOVE me? You want to get to know me? You think I'm a good addition to Your Kingdom? You could send me to hell, but no. No. You want me to have eternal life, so You allow me to choose You. You allow everyone to choose You - if only we all did!
God, I keep cheating on You. I keep turning to things You've created, instead of turning to You. Frankly, I've been a whore, always trying to grab fulfillment in things that can never truly satisfy me. I walk away from them, emptier than before, hoping You'll forgive me for straying.
And You do.
You don't leave me. You don't forsake me. You will never forget about me. You keep an eye on me. You find me to be beautiful. It doesn't make sense. It likely never well.
Does it have to?
I LOVE YOU!!! ♥ ♥ <--- and this time, I mean it!