Sometimes, I feel so alone. Like when I'm with my sister and another friend, and the two of them pair off. It makes me wonder if I'm boring.
Ah, well. You are my Best Friend. I don't need anyone else! All I need is You. And only You are a truly faithful Friend.
God, am I an unfaithful friend? Correct me if I am! The last thing I want is to be the type of friend that I myself try to avoid! What a terrible thought...
God, please, show me areas of my life that I need to change! I want to be pure-hearted. I want to be Your precious daughter, Bride, and friend. The fact that I have the honor to even be Your servant is unfathomable. The fact every human that has ever existed can be Your own is simply astonishing.
You astound me, Lord. Your Love for me, an unfaithful fiancee who keeps chasing after old loves, old fancies that I've tried, time and time again, to sacrifice at Your altar...
God, how? Why?
You know what? I want to be finished asking "why"! I want to be able to accept the fact that I am forgiven, treasured. For some reason, it's just so hard for me to believe in Your forgiveness. My heart often condemns me. But even if my heart condemns me...Salvation is not dependent on my feelings. If it was, Your Grace would be off and on like a lightswitch! Phahh! You're constant. Wonderfully so.
I LOVE YOU!!! ♥ ♥