WHY DO I HAVE TO STRUGGLE SO MUCH WITH JEALOUSY OF THE ATTENTION MY SISTER GETS?!?!?!
Okay, I'm sorry. That's all the venting I'm going to do.
God, You are the most incredibly forgiving, loving, beautiful, sacred, holy, gentle, mighty, just, powerful, perfect, caring and awe-inspiring Being that ever existed. To think You love me - ME! - is beyond-words astonishing. What have I ever done for You, other than fail and stumble and fall...only to have You gently pick me up and mold me....and tell me I'm beautiful, and I'm Yours, and You love me...And then, You set me back on my feet, hold my hand, and guide me along, gently leading me to a better place where You know I have always belonged...You whisper encouragements in my ear and never fail to love me.
And when distractions, like doubts or fears, pull my attention from You, You know how to bring me back, never easing to forgive me as long as I live...God, Your mercy is so infinite that I cannot even understand it...or explain it. And You mercy and offer of salvation and forgiveness have been extended to every human being on this earth that has ever existed.
My Savior, why? Why do You love me?
I think part of it is because You see the real beauty in me. You look past my wretchedness and see the REAL ME - and the person I can become. And somehow, You love me for it.
It's past my curfew, so I will put down my pen, as much as I'd love to write the night away.
I LOVE YOU, LORD.
YOU FIRST LOVED ME. ♥ ♥