If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,”
even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.
I grew up fearing the dark - believing it to be the time of the demons. I remember how my brother and I used to sneak under the covers and play 'games' where monsters would creep into our room and try to take us. My brother, being six years older than me and knowing the difference between reality and imagination, knew it was of no harm.
But I actually started to believe what he said.
Sometimes, during the night, I would just sit in silence and stare at the shadows on the ceiling - expectant and waiting for something to jump out and bite me. Nothing ever did but fears are hard to control, and its even worse when you're a writer who can imagine the scariest-possible scenarios in your head.
Now I'm 14. And I'm sensible enough to know that there's no such thing as monsters underneath the bed that will slither out and eat me. But I do know that I am yet to overcome my inner demons. And that's why, even now, I fear the dark. I feel most vulnerable when I'm surrounded by darkness.
Reading those verses though, I remembered. God created darkness. And he didn't mean for it to scare people. If He created it, He'd have control over it.
Even the darkest of times, He could shed light upon.
And when I fear the demons are going to break me, He'll protect me.
He'll change the darkness to light...
He'll change fear to love.