To bear 'witness' to the previous journal on how I often doubted God's existence, and had rather 'unruly Christian behavior' as I remember criticizing myself, here's a journal entry I wrote a few months back (much before I truly gave my life to God).
Matthew 6: 22-23
The eye is the lamp of the body; so then if your eye is clear, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light that is in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!
Forgive me for I have sinned. I have done the unacceptable, said words that should not have been said. Repeatedly, I have sinned but You always loved and cared for me even when I broke my promises. But now, redemption is the path I take.
Help me and let me ignore the temptation to sin. Let me not be hypocritical and use Your name in dishonorable ways. Please guide me to the path of true righteousness so that I may one day store up my treasures in heaven.
For I want to be Your faithful servant. Bless me my Lord so that I may not sin or commit myself to bad temptations. Let me not be blasphemous but praise You forever and ever.