"I'm Jealous"

I am jealous of the duvet tucking you in at night
Because I want to hug your dreams myself
I am jealous of a sky that you admire
While I am just a lifeless canvas in the background
I am jealous of the love you have for me
Because I don’t know if I can give you the same
I’m vulnerable to your love

Promise me you will always remember
The beauty in you that I found
The beauty that overwhelmed my definition of love
I gave you the gift of my heart
And I know I will never be forgiven for scars I gave you
But I hope you will find peace within yourself
And blossom the perfection that is your soul

I am jealous of the duvet tucking you in at night
Because I want to hug your dreams myself
I am jealous of a sky that you admire
While I am just a lifeless canvas in the background
I am jealous of the love you have for me
Because I don’t know if I can give you the same
I’m vulnerable to your love

I don’t want to breathe when you are next to me
Because every breath gets us closer to falling into the black
At night, I am scared to sleep, to dream
The reality with you is better than any dreams

You brought my soul to its knees
We were desperate lovers
Who at night were living beautiful fantasies
Our minds switching off, our souls taking over

You walked on my deepest dreams and desires
Treading carefully, afraid for them to shatter like glass
Giving my dreams dimensions that were unimaginable to me
I never recovered from the closeness she gave

I loved her against myself
I loved her against reality
I loved her against fear
I loved her against pain
I loved her

You were mine saint with a sin
Saint with a sin
Saint with a sin

The End

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