"Lonely Soldier"

I will not weep
I will not cry
I am too weak for that
Had enough of it all
I am a lonely soldier
In the battle with my past
Only I know what I saw
Memories feeding on my pain
Never wanting to let go
I'm too weak to stand up

Tired of pretending
This nightmare seems
That it will never end
Living each day
Just trying to survive
Managing that barely
Thoughts of ending it
Run across my mind
So many times
I am going down

I will not weep
I will not cry
I am too weak for that
Had enough of it all
I am a lonely soldier
In the battle with my past
Only I know what I saw
Memories feeding on my pain
Never wanting to let go
I'm too weak to stand up

All those overwhelming emotions
Are like a disease
Spreading in my soul
I am infected
Nothing I can do about it
I am too far
Into this nightmare
WIth fear I face
Another wave of memories
Making me fall on my knees
Let this nightmare
Control me now
I am too weak to care

I will not weep
I will not cry
I am too weak for that
Had enough of it all
I am a lonely soldier
In the battle with my past
Only I know what I saw
Memories feeding on my pain
Never wanting to let go
I'm too weak to stand up 
Goodbye world 

The End

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