"I hate"

I hate myself
I hate my veins
I hate my thoughts
I hate my past actions
Hating my own mask
Who I had become?

This cannot be real me
Even in nightmares I am better
Than in the reality
What is going on?
Not feeling real
I am living in this
Black and white world
I created to disguise myself
I fade into the background
Disappear into nothing
Like I was never even born

I hate myself
I hate my veins
I hate my thoughts
I hate my past actions
Hating my own mask
Who I had become?

I hold in the pain for too long
It destroyed me very slowly
Feeling so lonely
In this black and white world
I found myself in
Walk away from me
Don't try to help me
I don't need help
I need a miracle to set me free
Or agony in this melancholy
Will await me to give
Its final punch
So there won't be anything left
To collect from my heart

I hate myself
I hate my veins
I hate my thoughts
I hate my past actions
Hating my own mask
Who I had become? 

The End

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