"Master of Pretending"

You will not see my pain
Me dying slowly inside
I will hide feelings that
I cannot deny
Just to see you smile
I will smile with you
I became a master of pretending

I don't trust you
Don't take it personally
I don't trust anyone
Not even myself
My dark thoughts will
Stay with me
And join me in my grave
Where finally
I would be free from
Memories hunting me
Not letting me forget my past
I will just smile
Mastering my skills
At pretending

You will not see my pain
Me dying slowly inside
I will hide feelings that
I cannot deny
Just to see you smile
I will smile with you
I became a master of pretending

"I am fine"
My new favourite phrase
Stopping people asking
All those silly questions
Expecting me to open myself
I cannot do that anymore
Leaving myself open
Leaves too many scars
That will never heal
In front of my eyes
I saw pain changing me
So I will just become
Master of pretending

Helping others
Is a key to my own
True and only happiness
Even though I cannot help myself
Throw all your problems at me
Even though I can barely
Stand up with a weight of them all
Don't worry though
I will pretend again
That I am alright and I'll help you
I'm master of pretending 

I'm master of pretending
Only few people
Will have real me
They will try to save me
But did I not
Became too much perfect in being
Master of Pretending?  

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