*Dedicated to someone who 'apparently' waits for the next chapter
Sometimes there are no words,
Sometimes there are no expressions;
It's difficult to tell you how I feel,
It's tough to make any impressions.
I feel so blocked up inside,
The emotions seem to have dried;
It's been so long since I saw you,
I can't recall your face; I've tried.
You come and go as you please,
You're your own master;
It's my head that is messed up,
It's all becoming a disaster.
Your affection and your niceties,
The warmth and the glorious smiles;
Your hollow words and compliments,
They have misguided me for miles.
I believed everything you ever said,
I now realize my mistake;
I was too gullible and naive, I know,
But now my heart is at stake.
I don't know if your words were true,
Or if it was some game;
I still recall every breath you took,
For me, nothing is now the same.
I've lost my heart; I've lost my mind,
I've begun to lose my sanity;
I don't know if it was meant to be,
But I still hold hope, in my vanity.
You can't live without me, I know,
Even though you put up a brave face;
You love me more than you are willing to accept,
You're scared, of the intensity and the pace.
I assure you that I'll be waiting,
I want you to know this fact;
Until you are ready to accept me as yours,
I will keep putting up this act.
This act of not caring enough,
This act of not being bothered;
I've been playing this role for a while now,
It's just so you don't feel smothered.
My love for you is endless and pure,
Even though it may appear to be fake;
I want us to play this game of hearts,
It's a risk I'm willing to take.
If I lose, I lose it all,
I'm not in a better position even now;
But if I win, and I pray that I do,
You'll win with me, and that's a vow.
Please be willing to bet on me,
Even though the stakes may appear high;
It's a risk worth taking, I assure you,
And the negatives are nigh.
The glorious highs of love beckon,
The lows are far behind;
Please love me back and show it too,
For, my love now I cannot rescind.