*Note: this entry is not intended to offend anyone, I wish to simply state what I believe.

It seems to me like the presence of "God" has come up a lot in these past few weeks of my life. I go to church so of course I hear about him but I always hear people talking about him outside of mass, I read about things talking about him, and my mom even started reading this one book about a little boy who began talking about the angels and him. 

For me I feel as if this is a sign that I need to be more involved in my spiritual life. I also feel that something is not quite right with my life. Maybe it's this, but who really knows. If God is calling out to me then I'll try to respond. 

Now this next part (as stated before) is my opinion so please don't get mad or anything. 

It really angers me when people say things like: If there's a god why doesn't he save us? Why did God abandon me? I need him and he doesn't come. Does he not love me anymore? I thought he was supposed to be there for us. Why does he do these horrible things to us when he's supposed to help us?

I believe that everything happens for a reason. There are no accidents or coincidences. 

So there are many things God might want us to do. He might not help because he wants you to be able to do it on your own. He wants you to be strong enough by yourself. Remember: these are not his mistakes or problems, these are ours. 

Who knows? Perhaps he wants us to prove something to him. Prove that we are worthy of his help (that sounds weird but it makes sense in my head). 

Maybe we need to deserve his trust in order for him to help. But I do remember that sometimes even the most horrible people are forgiven and accepted. To me I think that really shows his kindness. 

I don't believe that God will ever abandon or betray our trust. But it's us who do it to him, and yet he is able to forgive. That's what I find so amazing. After all we do he still accepts. 

I feel that he is always by our side, whether we (want to) know it or not.

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Basically what the title says.

I can't keep it all bottled inside my head forever.

I'm gong to post my serious, serious (!) stuff here and not anymore just random diary entries :) I'll put that somewhere else haha

updated Jan 29 by llmay