ReligionMature

"Religion consists of a set of things which the average man thinks he believes and wishes he was certain." - Mark Twain

I was born and raised into a Christian family, with a father who had wanted to be a pastor since he was young and a mother who had been born and raised into a very religious Christian family also. When I was a little girl, I believed in everything I learned in church. I also believed in Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, and the Easter Bunny.

When I got a little older.. maybe nine or ten years old, and I discovered all those things weren't real, I started to question my religion. I still would go to church and I still sang and praised the Christian God and Jesus, but it wasn't whole heartedly as it had been once before.

Another year or two forward, I got a Kindle Fire, thus granting me access to the entire internet. I had the world at my fingertips. I Googled some things about religions, and discovered athiests and agnostics. I'd never known such people existed. I thought everyone believed in the God my family believed in.

I searched and read and discovered all sorts of things, and almost everything made me lose my belief in my religion until I was left with only a small bit of hope that maybe, maybe it or something like it could exist.

I wanted so badly to believe in it like my family did. Sometimes, I still do. I've never told any of my family members, although I'm sure my mother has a tiny bit of a clue that I don't believe (this is due to her trying to convince me to want to go to a Christian private school and my many refusals which I couldn't give any good reasons for because I didn't want her to know, as you've heard already).

I have told two friends of mine, and the results of my telling them were completely polar opposite. The first tried to push Christianity upon me, demanding that I send myself and my family to a church, preferably the one he attended. The second, being an atheist, didn't really care. I'm sure you can guess which one I'm no longer friends with. (Just in case you can't, it's the first one.)

So, I have declared myself Agnostic. I am not saying that there isn't a God of some kind out there, because I don't know. Maybe there is. I guess I'll find out someday. But as of right now, I believe that it is impossible to know that such a being exists and I refuse to praise (or whatever you want to call it) to something/someone who's existence has not been proven. Until there is some sort of ground breaking proof, I will believe in the Big Bang Theory and evolution.

That is all.

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