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Yes, it's another song about self-harm. Only this time, it's not going to end the way the last one did.
As previously stated, I feel as though I have to earn EVERYTHING I receive. It's so tiring, living this way...And on one night, I decided that if I self-harmed, God would be pleased with me and grant forgiveness unto me. I figured that if I punished myself, I'd save God the trouble of doing it for me.
Lies.

Penance

Verse One, Part One
God, I'm so sinful. So bad. So unforgivable.
God, You must hate me so much.
God, if there's some way to prove I'm sorry...
Penance or condemnation or such...

Verse One, Part Two
Maybe if I draw blood, You will see my pain
If I prove I'm sorry, then You might forgive me again

Chorus
Here I go, there it is
Blood upon my arm
But now I feel guilt
For daring to self-harm
God, I'm sorry!
I don't make sense!
I thought You'd forgive
If I did penance!

Verse Two, Part One
A scar, a lonely scar, a glaring mockery
 Of my own foolish decision...
I curl up and cry - You can't forgive me
After this self-made incision!

Verse Two, Part Two
Can you ever forgive my stupidity?
Look past the scar and see a hurting me? 

Chorus
Here I go, there it is
Blood upon my arm
But now I feel guilt
For daring to self-harm
God, I'm sorry!
I don't make sense!
I thought You'd forgive
If I did penance!

The End

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