The FightMature

My emotions are seriously damaged.
After going through emotions so intense they'd top the charts, I withdrew from life and decided it was better to feel nothing at all than to feel pain. So I went through a period of time in which I literally felt nothing. Nothing at all.
I'm getting rid of that. I'm cleaning out my my heart, and in doing so, I'm recovering my emotions again. Thank-You, God...

The Fight

Verse One
Happy mask on, happy mask off
Emotions became a light switch for me
 Turn 'em all on, turn 'em all off
Becoming exactly who I wanted to be

Chorus
But when I'm numb, then I'm gone, and I can't feel You at all
When I'm desensitized, I can't tell when I fall
I'm tired of stumbling without acknowledging pain
God, the fight is hard, but I'll fight it all the same

Verse Two
Learning to give my emotions to You
The hardest thing I've ever done
But only when I relinquish control
Can this battle really be won

Chorus
But when I'm numb, then I'm gone, and I can't feel You at all
When I'm desensitized, I can't tell when I fall
I'm tired of stumbling without acknowledging pain
God, the fight is hard, but I'll fight it all the same 

Bridge
I'm tired of looking in the mirror and
Wondering who I am
I'm tired of going outside my heart
And find I'm in sinking sand
I'm wearied, oh so wearied,
I just feel like giving in
But only when I relinquish control
Can I ever hope to win

Chorus
When I'm numb, then I'm gone, and I can't feel You at all
When I'm desensitized, I can't tell when I fall
I'm tired of stumbling without acknowledging pain
God, the fight is hard, but I'll fight it all the same 

The End

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