The Mask She KeepsMature

And yet there is more to me than you've read so far. I'm about to unearth a side of me that I've hardly addressed before now.
This is hard. Embarrassing, even. But I want you to see my heart so that my writings become all the realer to you.
I hate the thought of my vulnerability being revealed. But I have to do this.
This is a song about my fears.

In the Dark

Verse One, Part One
On the outside, she's as strong as you could imagine
On the outside, she's collected, joyful, and serene
On the outside, she's a stable shoulder to cry upon
On the outside, she's everything I want to be

Verse One, Part Two
 
But on the inside, oh, there's something else
On the inside, now, we find things she wouldn't tell

Chorus
So she'll turn on all the lights and fall asleep that way
With the lights above her head burning brightly
And she'll hold her ragged blanket close to her chest
And close her eyes ever so tightly
Maybe then, the panic will finally go away
Maybe then, she'll find some dreamless sleep
 She'll put aside her fearless skin and cry alone tonight
And she'll put away the mask she keeps

Verse Two, Part One
Shivering in bed, she is ever so afraid
Of the demons that will try to steal peace
She wants to sleep with her Bible tonight
 Then remembers, "God couldn't want to protect me"

Verse Two, Part Two
Because on the inside, she's about to crumble now
All these walls she's built will fall down

Chorus
So she'll turn on all the lights and fall asleep that way
With the lights above her head burning brightly
And she'll hold her ragged blanket close to her chest
And close her eyes ever so tightly
Maybe then, the panic will finally go away
Maybe then, she'll find some dreamless sleep
 She'll put aside her fearless skin and cry alone tonight
And she'll put away the mask she keeps

Bridge
Sometimes, she panics and she can't sleep alone
So she'll go to her parents' bedroom to be reminded
That though her panic attacks and anxiety sometimes won't subside
 Peace exists, and someday, she'll find it

Chorus
But for now, she'll turn on all the lights and fall asleep that way
With the lights above her head burning brightly
And she'll hold her ragged blanket close to her chest
And close her eyes ever so tightly
Maybe then, the panic will finally go away
Maybe then, she'll find some dreamless sleep
 She'll put aside her fearless skin and cry alone tonight
And she'll put away the mask she keeps

The End

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