This is a big question...and it could have so many meanings when you don't specify what you want answered.
Why not? To be honest, I used to be such a big christian, I was so into my religion. But as of late, that's not a part of my life anymore. I pretend, sure, but my heart isn't in it. Just like my heart isn't in a lot of stuff anymore. My grades have dropped in school, my motivation has flown out the window, and the only heart I seem to have now is the physical one beating in my chest. If I could, I would get rid of that too.
Just when things are going great, the rug gets pulled out from under me. Everything goes wrong. I've lost my boyfriend, my only real one, who I loved with all my heart and soul...and then I have lost so many friends cuz of something that I never did anyway, and now my best friend is in the hospital. I don't know what to do, or where to turn to, my parents cant help. Mom's prego (no big surprise there) and my step dad is a big jerk. My birth dad and I don't talk much, so I feel as if I am all alone.
Lately, i have just been depressed and not caring about myself so much. I can't talk about my depression to many people, and I'm afraid of hurting myself also. I just hope to get out of this deep hole before it's too late.