I'm too competitive. Some times its a good thing but mostly it pi$$e$ every one off. I have to be best at everything I do and to be honest I'm not excellent at any thing.
When some one is better than me I get so jealous and I feel awful! I act like a cow to every one and say horrible things I don't even mean. I can't even help it, its just my nature.
I brag about every thing I do, the luck that comes my way and I don't even realise I'm doing it.
I can't sleep at night. I think about things I've said during the day, how awful I've been to people, how much people hate me now. Mistakes I've made linger in my mind, why am I such an idiot? Why can't I just let it go.