He wants me for me! He just wants me! He doesn’t just want me as a means to reach others or as an automaton of praise, all He wants is me and that’s all!
For so long I’ve struggled with the belief that once I’m His He doesn’t care anymore because He’s got me. And now that He has me all He cares about or wants is to use me as a means to get others. That’s what, in the back of my mind, I’ve felt and believed for so long… that He merely wants me to use me.
But today as I was reading a book by Johanna Weaver, Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World, something clicked. It read, “the thing we must understand is that God did not choose us to ‘use’ us”. That sentence knocked the wind right out of me and I just started crying. It’s finally beginning to dawn on my soul, this glorious truth: Jesus wants me for me! He has no ulterior motive, no secret agenda to use me and spend me up and then leave. NO!! He wants me for me! He just wants me!