I haven’t written anything of any value for quite awhile, or, if I start, I stop before I get to the main purpose. Oh well. I won’t feel guilty about something so small as writing in my own journal! : )
I’ve been feeling really restless and anxious because I feel like I’m not doing anything. With my break from playing cello and my three classes only, my schedule is really open. Hence, I feel like I need to be doing more, much much much more. I feel like I should be busy otherwise I’m wasting time and resources and not doing enough. When do I start cello again? Am I just being a lazy butt? What should I be doing? Is God displeased with me for not doing more? And if I should be doing more what should that be? How can I challenge myself to grow daily? Am I slipping back into mediocre living?
How much is enough? In my case, there’s probably no such thing as doing too much. No matter what I do or will do I don’t think it will ever be enough; there is always more I could do or should do.