I feel like I’m learning so much, and yet at times I just feel… sad. I don’t know why. I must be doing something wrong. And when I’m feeling sad and get asked how I’m really doing I lie and say I’m fine. Why do I do that? I know that, even if I don’t know why I feel the way I do, talking about it would probably help me think it through. And why would I not accept a blessing when someone genuinely cares enough to ask how I am? Why do I want to have someone to talk to but not want to express my thoughts, hurts, and feelings to my family? Why do I always want attention from outside sources? Why don’t I draw on the abundant supply of support and encouragement that’s within my own family? Am I, right now, sinning because I feel the way I do?
Lord Jesus, teach me. I give all these questions and feelings to You. You know precisely what to do with them, even when I don’t have a clue! Thank You, Lord!