I went to a body image support group thingy tonight and I wish I hadn’t, ‘cause now I have a choice: to keep going and be opened up to healing and a fuller life, or to close off and keep my “hurt”. It’s up to me completely. So will I be a coward or courageous?
The group leader talked to me afterword, asking me about my relationship with food, my parents, etc. And I talked, stupid me, I actually talked. And now I’m terrified. So scared. I will be lost if I share this part of me with anyone or anything. I will lose myself.
But the choice is mine.
Help me, somebody!! Something is so desperately wrong, despite the fact I keep denying it… but what’s wrong?!?!! NOTHING!! Literally every time I try to figure it out I can’t come to anything. I’m eating and I’m not cutting, so nothing’s wrong.