Please, someone please tell me it’s ok for me to eat, that I’m not a weak, disgusting glutton if I want to eat. Will someone just care about me and how I feel apart from my ED? It’s selfishness – all horrid, disgusting selfishness! I hate myself for wanting something so readily available to me but that I close off to. So, of course, it’s my own fault that I’m feeling this way! Therefore, I shouldn’t get what I want because I’ve always had it but never received and taken it for myself ‘cause that would’ve been selfishness. And now it’s all just selfishness.