Choking

Choking (9/12/2011)

Do you understand what it feels like
What it feels like
I'm a torn up person
With a broken heart
Trying to decide
I'm completely split
Between what I am and what I 'wanna be

Oh, I know what I 'gotta do
To be the kinda person
I need to be
But its hard to break down so many
Strong chains
My own mind won't release me
My own heart won't open up
It's like I'm choking myself

Oh, I'd love to tell you everything inside
I'd love to pour the emotions out
But there's a tall wall inside my soul
And it refuses
To let anyone
Chip it away

Oh, I know what I 'gotta do
To be the kinda person
I need to be
But its hard to break down so many
Strong chains
My own mind won't release me
My own heart won't open up
It's like I'm choking myself

Oh, and you
You act so understanding
And I
I worry for my own sanity
Every single day
You say that you can handle it
But how can you be sure
You haven't even scratched the surface
Of this tangled mess.

Oh, I know what I 'gotta do
To be the kinda person
I need to be
But its hard to break down so many
Strong chains
My own mind won't release me
My own heart won't open up
It's like I'm choking myself.

You say that you can fix me
Help me clean up inside
But there's nothing I can do
Until I figure out how to
Make my mind
Release me
Make my heart
Open up
Oh, It's like I'm choking myself
I want to let it all out
But the barrier won't set me free

So I'll just keep choking
I've done it for eighteen years
I'll just keep hiding away
It's not like I need to speak
About it
You don't need to worry
I'll maintain sanity
I don't need to release
Or open up
I'll be alright
Somehow 

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