How Do I Tell YouMature

How do I tell you that the reason I seem so distant is because I'm haunted by ideas that infect my mind like poison?

How do I tell you that the reason I always wear long pants is because my legs are covered in scars?

How do I tell you that the reason I write on myself is because it's a safe substitute? 

How do I tell you that the reason I always disappear after meals is because I'm in my room trying not to throw it all up? 

How do I tell you that the reason I sleep with my door locked even though you tell me not to is because if I don't I wake up taking medicine?

How do I tell you that the reason I seem so secure is because I'm so insecure?

How do I tell you that the reason I appear like I hate you is because I'm afraid of hurting you?

How do I tell you that the reason I don't smile anymore is because I'm dying on the inside?

How do I tell you all my failures? If you knew my secrets you would hate me forever.