How social media makes your self confidence plummet

You would think that at a time when there are so many social media outlets that a human being would feel more connected with the world.  "The world is a smaller place" and all that jazz.  Unfortunately, in my own experience, it has done exactly the opposite.  Sites like Facebook, for instance, has given people an excuse to not make one on one contact.  Why pick up the phone and have to make that much effort when I can simply fire them off a message on FB and get a message back when it's convenient for them.  It's all about convenience. Yours and theirs.  I find myself not wanting to pick up the phone myself to call certain people because I'm never sure when is a good time.  Are they at work? Are they sleeping? Do they have company? Are they busy cleaning the toilet? 

What makes this even more frustrating is that I'm a stay at home mom, all of my outside influences either work, go to school or do both.  Which means that I'm expected whethor conciously or not, to make more of an effort to interact with these people.  I"M not busy/working/studying so I have more time on my hands to visit or call.  What these people don't seem to realize is that the bulk of my "free" time is through the day, when they are otherwise engaged.  The evening, when they are home, is  also when my children and significant other are home and would like to see me as well.  Also, to be the one who is constantly making an effort to message/call/visit others starts to feel as if I am being a nuisance.  I shouldn't have to fight for a spot in a friends life.  Should I?

Perhaps the only way I will know exactly who truly wants me to be a part of their lives will require me to deactivate these accounts, sit back and wait for the phone to ring.  The part that makes me nervous about that is what if it never does?  I feel isolated and disconnected NOW.....

Maybe that's the point though. Perhaps, I need to disconnect myself completely from the others before they will realize that they didn't need me there.  Nor I, them.  Start fresh, put myself out there and meet new people.

It all starts with the word deactivate.

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