Dear Warrior {04-05-14}

Something's in the air
I can feel it, I can feel it
God is moving, moving, moving
Love is alive, we're waking up
I can feel it, I can feel it
God is moving, moving, moving
- Newsboys

Dear Warrior...

This might sound crazy. Over-the-top. If you're anything like me, and your prayer time is often spent with "wouldn't it be nice if my prayer actually made a difference" running through the back of your mind, you might think I'm off my rocker.

But. But. Something changed yesterday. I don't even know how to express this.

Yesterday, I was at a church, waiting for a friend to get out of musical rehearsal. I was stressing about a certain friend - I'll call him, I don't know, Adrian. I'll call him Adrian.

Adrian doesn't know God, and for some reason, I just really felt like something was happening in his life right at that moment. It took several minutes to get it through my thick skull that, hey, maybe I needed to pray for him.

I wandered around the church until I found my way into the balcony in the sanctuary. I set down all my things on a pew, making sure my phone was a ways away from me so that it couldn't distract me. I found a shaft of light drifting through a stained glass window and knelt in it, hands flat on the floor in front of me. I opened my Bible to the book of Psalms, set my prayer journal near me, and turned on some very soft Tenth Avenue North music (yes, I'm addicted to them). I hesitated, then removed the shawl I was wearing and placed it over my head as a sign of submission.

"Jesus," I whispered, "I don't know why, but I feel compelled to pray for Adrian."

This is weird, I thought, then recalled the night before, when I was at a Bible study and the guy said "Prayer isn't gonna be enough if you keep thinking in the back of your mind, 'This is weird. This won't work.'" So I admitted to God, "I don't have much faith. I need you to add to me the faith I lack, because I know I don't have enough."

I recalled something else the guy giving the Bible study said: "When you pray, relive God's past successes. It will strengthen your faith."

(I wasn't even planning on going to that Bible study - I usually don't, as it's two hours away - but for some reason, I felt that God wanted me to. Now I see why. He was preparing me to pray for my friend.)

So I began to recount God's track record. He created the entire universe. He spoke absolutely everything into existence with mere words! He caused a great flood - He parted the waters of the Red Sea - He helped David defeat Goliath - I kept recalling events in which God's Power was strongly manifested. Then I prayed some of the verses of Psalm 103.

You've redeemed my life from destruction.
You've crowned me with Lovingkindness and Tender Mercies.
You've satisfied my desires.
You've renewed my spirit like the eagles.

I remembered my own salvation story.
How God has healed me of depression, anxiety, self-harm, occasional bouts of eating issues, OCD, codependency, perfectionism, broken relationships - oh, everything.
God, I was once in Adrian's place. I see so much of myself in him. I, too, was lost, but look how You've redeemed me!
If You have performed all these Powerful Acts, then I have faith that You Are strong enough to save Adrian, and that You Are reaching him, even as we speak.

I rose to my feet, waving my arms and gesturing wildly to punctuate my prayer. I have no doubt that nothing is powerful enough to sway Your Love for Adrian! I know You Love him more than anyone on this earth ever could, and that You desire his heart, just as it is, and that You. Are. With. Him. even right now! The prayer continued like that for a long time.

I felt like I needed to check my phone. Turns out a lovely Christian friend of mine was calling. It just seemed to me like I had to talk to her. She was calling about something totally unrelated, but at the end of the call, I asked, "Hey, can you do me a favor? I know this is strange, but I feel compelled to pray for my friend Adrian." I told her a little bit about him, and right there, even though she might've been in the middle of something, she prayed with me.

Pretty soon after the phone call, I had to leave. I got in the car and turned on the radio. The last few notes of a song were dying out, and I whispered, "God, I know this is kind of random, but...would you mind playing 'Strong Enough to Save' [by Tenth Avenue North] for me? Any song will do, but - "

The first few notes of the next song began, and BAM! Instant tears. I started screaming and crying and laughing and gasping and banging my hands against the steering wheel. It was my song. It was "Strong Enough to Save."

I felt God's Presence as the song swelled within the car. People in other cars were staring at my antics. I didn't even care. I turned the volume up full-blast and praised God for His Power and Salvation and Love.

Later, I texted a bunch of my friends. I told them that a friend of mine was in need of prayer, and that God was stirring, and would they please drop whatever they were doing to pray for him? I switched radio stations, asked God if He wouldn't mind sending some sign that yes, He was working in my friend's life, and just as I finished praying, "Strong Enough to Save" came on the radio again.

You might be disappointed to know that it's the next day, and Adrian never contacted me. I have no proof that anything happened yesterday...except for Faith, and except for the Presence and Reassurance of God that I have felt keenly, nonstop, ever since yesterday afternoon. God heard my prayer. Something happened yesterday. I don't know how I know...I just do.

Awhile back, a Christian friend of mine had a friend who was possessed by a demon. The demon spoke through her friend and said, "Don't let them pray. Don't let Christians pray. Whatever you do, don't let them pray, especially not in groups."

But I did.
I prayed.
With Faith.
Things happened.

Warrior, I tell you all this because I want you to know that there is no doubt in my mind that prayer changes things. Have Faith. The Spirit stirs. Recount God's Goodness. Praise Him for all the incredible deeds He's done in the past. Acknowledge His Power. Realize that He. Can. Do. Anything. Don't be afraid to ask Him for the Faith you don't have.


"He'll break open the skies
To save those who cry out His Name
The one the winds and waves obey
Is strong enough to save you."
- Tenth Avenue North

He is strong enough to save Adrian.
He is strong enough to save us.
He is strong enough for anything.

The End

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