Dear Warrior {01-05-12}

Dear Warrior...

I have learned several things in the past few weeks. For starters, I am apparently stupid enough to go out for a walk in the snow while wearing ballet flats that have huge holes in them. I've kind of learned not to ever do that again. Like, EVER. Another thing I've learned is that I am positively obsessed with Marvel superhero movies and would watch them over and over and over, if my sisters let me. Also, I've learned that you simply do not put twelve scoops of coffee grounds for four ounces of coffee in a coffee pot and expect the coffee to taste good. Oh, speaking of coffee, I also finally learned how to make coffee. Well, kind of. I'm the only one in my family who likes the coffee I make.

But that's not all I've learned. Thankfully.

I've discovered that it's possible to get lower-than-expected ACT scores...and not beat myself up for a month (quite unlike the old me, who spiraled into a month of penance after getting "only" an A in chemistry). I've stumbled upon the truth that it's not just okay to cry, it's helpful and healthy (though I did question myself, when I choked up over one of the aforementioned superhero movies). I have allowed God to teach me that it's not a rejection of me when a friend says she doesn't have time to Skype me. That it's okay to receive a random gift from a friend, without feeling guilty. That I can stand up for myself when people try to push me around. That I'm not defined by the dagger-sharp insult someone purposely threw at me last week.

I think that overall, I've learned more about who I am, Who God Is, and what this "Freedom" thing is.

And just when I think I've reached the top, just when I think there certainly couldn't be more joy and truth for me to discover, God shows me a whole new level of understanding and Love, one that He's daring me to come and find.

The End

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