It was then that I realized something.
The past few days, I've been doing really well with overcoming my OCD. I mean, I'm still trying to reconcile myself with the fact that I've got an unwanted label now, but as far as getting rid of the behaviors of OCD, the past few days've been great. It's been a nearly constant battle, as I'm discovering that nearly every small movement I make, every chapter I write, almost every step I take, is dominated by OCD. Even as I write this, I find myself tapping my foot in sequences of three. It's second nature, now. And it's got to go.
Anyways, I'm getting off track. The point is, I've been fighting this OCD like...heck. :)
Up til when I brought the OCD into the light, I'd been doing remarkably well with overcoming feelings of depression. But ever since Wednesday (when I really made the commitment to get rid of the OCD), with the exception of most of Friday, the depression has been creeping back. The devil wants to make sure I'm struggling with at least one mental illness, at all times.
And honestly, I almost let him win today. Almost.
But you know satan and the demons? I'm gonna give 'em heck. Tomorrow, I'm going to Sunday School, and I'm going to allow myself to enjoy interacting with my friends. Maybe, I'll even gather the courage to sit somewhere other than the back bench during the service. Yeah, I'll probably feel depressed. Yeah, I'll be tempted to believe that my friends don't really want me around. Yeah, I might even be plagued with the belief that I shouldn't open my Bible and read the chapter that the sermon's on. But whatever. Just whatever. The devil and his minions have got nothing on me.
Warrior, please, please, please, don't let the devil discourage you. He's going to try to bring up old battles that you've already fought. He's done it to me countless times already. But fight this battle with me! I'm on your side! Even if you feel alone, look over, and you'll see me, fighting beside you. Please, give the devil heck with me. It's hard, but it's so worth it. Don't let him get the victory when he brings old temptations back into the picture.
God's already overcome it all, anyways. Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world. God's got so much power - more than enough to help us beat back any curveball the devil throws our way. Rely on His Power. He's gotten you through your past; He'll get you through the present and the future. And, unlike the devil, you can be sure that He'll never, ever dredge up the things He's already forgiven.
Win this battle; please, win this battle. Don't give up. Please, fight alongside me...
P.S. Sorry for the overusage of the word "heck." I hope I didn't offend anyone. I just had to convey the depth of what I was trying to...yeah, convey. ;)