Does it seem like I'm posting a lot more than usual? That's because I'm learning a lot more than usual.
These past three weeks have been...wow. I don't even know how to describe it. They've been so lifechanging...so viewchanging. I am completely different than I was three weeks ago...because of Him.
These past few weeks, even though there have been some down days, and even though I'm discovering the gravity of the chains I am still in the process of shedding, I'm learning something. I'm learning that He's so, so worth it.
I know...that doesn't sound very original, but...
I want you all to know that these past weeks have been indescribable. The freedom I am finding through God and because of God is absolutely awesome, and I don't mean "awesome" in the flippant sense of the term. Yes, I have had hard days, but even the hard days are bearable. Through it all, I see God. And I can honestly tell you that I am happier - truly happier - now than I have ever, ever been in my entire life. Yes, the process of chain-breaking feels like hell, but it's so worth it.
Listen to me, my dear friend and warrior. I don't know what phase of recovery you're in right now - maybe you haven't even chosen recovery yet - but listen to me. Freedom might seem hard at times - okay, excruciating at times - but don't you dare give up. As I fight these fights and win these battles, I look around me and see people around me who are still in chains.
And I can't help but think, Why on earth are they still choosing to live in bondage?
You might not know what freedom looks like. Or maybe you do, but it's just been so hard lately that it doesn't seem "worth it." But take it from someone who is beginning to know: there is absolutely nothing more beautiful than freedom. Its beauty transcends the attractiveness of chains.
If you're breaking free of what holds you back, I rejoice with you! I am proud to be your fellow warrior. Our God is mighty, isn't He?
But if you're still in bondage...why? Why? You'll find what you're looking for, what you're truly looking for, when you surrender to Him.
Trust me. Because of God, I know what I'm talking about.
I love you.