I watched a movie at my sister's house today. A movie I did not want to watch. Eclipse. I have no tolerance for the Twilight Saga anymore, I gave that up. I was quite obsessed back in fifth grade, I must admit. But that's beside the point. The point is that I was watching it. And whilst Bella and Edward were kissing in her room, I realized that I really want that. I want to be kissed. I want to be older. I want to be in love, I want to be loved back. I want to kiss fiercely, I want to be kissed fiercely. I just really wish I was older. Fifteen, maybe. Then I would be in ninth grade, like you. And I could tell you how I feel, and it would be okay for us to be together. And right now, my heart hurts. I cannot explain the feeling. My heart just hurts. I love you, you see. Not true, genuine love, no. I'm thirteen and we haven't even dated, I can't be in love with you. But I do love you. I'm not in love with you. But I have a feeling that it could happen. You know.. In a few years. I just really, really want this. And nobody can stop me from wanting it. This summer I'm turning fourteen. Is that old enough?
Suddenly, I feel so young.