Online Neglection

I never thought there would come a time when I would neglect Protagonize. When I wouldn't check up on things on a thrice-daily basis or find something new to post everyday. The truth is, my life has become hectic in the most idle way (I know, that makes no sense.)

Lately, I've been trying to focus on me - and that's not because I'm in a bad place (I'm very happy to be on summer break - not results, I'll get to that later.) It's because I've realised that very soon, I will be very busy, and I don't know if I'll have time to just do what I want to do. I've always worked to a schedule, my own or somebody else's, and now I'm finally getting the time to do nothing and be proud of it. I've been writing, a lot of editing, and most recently have been cleaning the house for my 18th birthday party (and trying to guess what my Dad's bought me, thereby messing up everything tidy on the quest!) Most of what I've been doing is unproductive, and for once I'm starting to like those sort of activities. 

My one regret is that I've been ignoring quite a few of my friends. Well, I say ignoring, I just haven't made that much of an effort to see people. I think sub-consciously it's out of sadness that I won't see some of them for a long time, and the separation is best begun early, even though that hurts because they're my best friends and they'll soon be 200 miles away. I see a lot of posts online about everybody having fun days out and going places - which we can do because it's actually blazing hot and beautiful in England this summer - and there I am still in the house choosing my own solitude. I've always made an effort to be sociable even though everybody knows that I'm quite a private person - perks of being a writer, yup - and that determination has started to fade a little. It all seems to be part of preparing for this new, terrifying life that will soon be upon me in two months.

Emphasis on terrifying.

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