It's pancake day today. I'm not at school because I don't feel well, so Mum says I can't have any pancakes. Perhaps I'll feel better by then. I hope so.
I still haven't worked out who I'm in love with. I'll just have to wait and see. It might be Aaron, but I doubt it. I'm still a bit young to get a boyfriend. I just thought - what if the feeling is not that I am in love, but that I'm going to be in love? It's all so confusing.
I have decided to marry someone called Aaron, although this unknown person will hopefully be a lot more mature than the Aaron I know!
My story is still going strong although at the moment I am concentrating more on a future chapter. It's called 'Broken-hearted Betrayer'. I might change it to 'Broken Heart' though. This is the chapter where Delorfinde dies. My book will be published! I'm going to work so hard at that when I finish it and send it to the publishers, they will like it so much that they will publish it. That would be the happiest moment of my life. I have decided to do chores and things for money. I really really want a laptop and if I save enough, I can. I need about £200 or more extra to what I've got now because I want to have some left.
I think it is Aaron! Next year, when I'm twelve, I think I'm going to ask him out. if anyone ever reads this diary, I'll kill them. I seriously will! At first it wasn't private - not until a couple of days ago. It is now! I'm not going to give up writing in my diary until this book runs out. [like that happened] It's the only way I can share my secrets. I can't stay long, though, because everyone is still up. This pen is really loud.
This pen is a lot quieter & I can actually read it. I'm going to ring Esme soon; at least I've got one thing to look forward too. I'm going to try and write in my diary every day - it comforts me.