Coming out of Blindness

I deserve to be respected because I am your best friend. 

I deserve to be respected because I give the ears and shoulder you seek.

I deserve to be respected because I clear my schedual for you.

I deserve to be respected because I draw you on wild adventures. 

I deserve to be respected because I bake you cookies and muffins and cupcakes.

I deserve to be respected because I devote hours of my busy afternoon putting together a 3-D representation of your passions and why I think you are special.

I deserve to be respected because I challenge the way you think.

I deserve to be respected because I brighten your room with paintings of your legacy and mobiles of your colorful personality. 

I deserve to be respected because I make you laugh and give you something to look forward to.

I deserve to be respected because I am there when you need someone to talk to.

I deserve to be respected because I give you a vision of self importance and your biggest fan.

I deserve to be respected because I showed you the world from behind the camera instead of in the spotlight.

But I don't deserve to be respected because I joined you in our blindness. I couldn't see my worthiness. I assumed it was your amazing insight that liked me. It was your kindness that kept me around. I was a tumor who received something I didn't deserve. 

I didn't see my small glow because I was blinded by your extravagance. I was so addicted to the light I didn't think to look inside. Instead I compared myself, and I didn't appreciate the small stuff.

I deserve my self respect because I endured my self hate for months.

I deserve my self respect because I saw my flame nearly extinguished, and I pulled it from the flame.

I deserve my self respect because I illuminated my own view.

I can see now I've grown strong on my own. You gave me the push to find my strengths, and I was the one who did the work to get them back. For the first time in a long time, I was not a lesser version of you, but ME. And I'm good at it.

I am giving. 

I am caring.

I am patient.

I am strong.

I am my own light.

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