A message to anyone who feels trampled upon, unloved, hurt, bullied... anything that makes you feel less than the incredible person that you are is not worth your time. Speak up and end hate.
It's difficult to try and capture a specific moment in words, because language is limited. How do I describe in full accuracy how my throat aches because I've been crying? How I can still feel the dirt that's been shifted by the streams of tears that drove down my cheeks. And that slightly sticky sensation when the tears have dried in the lines of your neck, and everything feels hot and odd because of something outside of yourself.
It's like trying to explain every muscle movement in the face of someone overcome by emotion. We try, but the words we spin can't match the images we see; someone fighting the tears, an angry woman, a distraught old man. You see that muscle flex in the jaw? When it could mean so many things, and only by pairing it with the eyes, the mouth, the hands... we're powerless to convey our own emotions. They are not concrete; we cannot hold them.
But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try.
This is a message to anyone who has ever been hurt, been bullied, been stepped on, belittled, crushed, toyed with or used. Anyone who has felt like their opinions, their beliefs, their life doesn't matter.
You are not alone.
People tell you that all the time. You see it on posters for support groups you don't want to go to, because what if you're worse than them? What if they turn on you too? Or what if your problems are nothing to theirs, and you're just fishing for attention? What if?
If the entire world asked what if? nothing would ever get done. And those bullies, those people who belittle you, they wouldn't act the way they do. Because they don't think. They're mindless when they turn on you. And in most cases, they do that because something has or is happening to them too.
But that is no reason to hurt others. Sometimes, you can say something you don't truly mean, or you shouldn't say to someone. You can do things you didn't want to do, in your heart. But you did or said it anyway.
But these people are not alone either.
You are not alone, and neither are they.
Stand up. It's hard, and it might hurt. But tell someone, share with someone you trust. Share with someone who can do something about it. Tell someone who can help you to fend them off. Tell someone who can stand by your side and say 'no. You should stop hurting this person.'
We live in a world where hierarchy rules, and sometimes, those at the bottom get hurt. Sometimes, those in the middle, or at the top do too.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, while words might not be able to fully express how you feel, they can go a long way in changing why you feel the way you do. And while actions can express how you feel louder than words, it is unwise to use the weapon of your aggressor, because then you become the reason for the twitch of someone else's muscle, the tears on someone else's cheek.
So please know, you can always find someone who can understand how you feel before you've even said a word. Because someone else has always been hurt too.
Speak Up. No Hate. Find Love.
~ “Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.”