You know this is for you...

I love you.

Look at me I’m crying. What the?? And now I’m angry and I don’t like it I don’t like love.

I miss you.

Look, now I’m smiling meekly cause I don’t really care anymore and it doesn’t hurt as much as before.

I wish you were here.

I wish you’d put your arms round me and wait for my tears but eyes are dry and my head hurts.

But the crying’s not coming yet An you don’t know you’ll hurt me yet and you haven’t hurt me yet. Yet.

I don’t know why I’m wishing this Maybe one day wishes’ll come true but now they’re sort of hit and miss.

I’d pray for you.

I know you’re not a Christian and it’s all kind of weird for but I love you and god does too.

Love shouldn’t hurt, should it? Maybe I’m just being stupid but I really think that I’m in love with you.

Is it hurting you?

If it were, would you show it? But you’re always with a smile and you now that keeps me happy for a while.

I drew a picture of you and it was almost good, maybe one day I could use you as a muse? You’re so beautiful.

The tears are starting to come down now. They shouldn’t be coming down but their clouding my vision somehow.

I wish I could say goodbye now but this won’t end yet because I haven’t got the courage to say whats true.

In some ways I wish you’d leave so I could just move on, but you’re a constant reminder of everything and you don’t know it and it’s hurting.

And I hate you because everyone loves you and I love you more but I’m not telling you because I’m scared and I hate that about myself.

Why can’t I? I love you. I love you. Isn’t that supposed to make this easier? It’s not. I don’t think it ever will.I love you so much and I wish I could say it. 

I love you, Freakazoid.

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