I wrote this on 28/10/10. I'd recently split with my fiance and was trying to figure out how I felt about a very close friend.
I'm supposed to feel free,
Yet all I feel is trapped and alone,
Scared and unsure,
Confused and uncertain.
The people around me, ask if I'm okay,
'I'm fine really,' I reply and fake a smile,
I feel weak and defenceless,
Cold and empty.
Constantly searching for a way,
A way to feel more like me,
To stop the pain,
To find you.
I need you here to stop the loneliness,
To cease the confusion,
Because the only time I see clear,
Is when I'm with you.