I end up crawling back to Zach's house after just half an hour, worried sick about Rowen. I've only had her for 3 weeks and already I can't stand t0 be away from her for more than a few minutes. I shuffle on the doorstep, hesitating, looking around, wondering if I should ring the doorbell. But then I miss my chance to leave, when Zach's mum, Helen, opens the door and walks right into me.
"Oh, hello, Jess, I'm just off out. Go on in, Zach's in his room, with my precious little Granddaughter!" She smiles proudly at me, and I force myself to smile back.
"Thanks, Mrs. Cooper." I say, still grinning that big ol' fake grin.
"Oh honey, call me Helen, we're family now!" She says, patting my arm. Gulping, I walk inside. Once outside Zach's room, I knock on the door.
"Who is it?" His voice calls.
"Me..." I say, in a quiet voice.
"Jess?" I hear the scuffle of his feet, and I can tell that he is on the other side of the door.
"Yeah. How's Rowen? I was so worried about her.." I act normal, making my voice easy and careless, like I hadn't stormed out of the house half an hour earlier.
"She's still sleeping.. well, like a baby!" He laughs to himself, and I can tell he's nervous about the way I'll act. "Want to come in?"
"Ok.. I overreacted before... Zach, I'm sorry..." When he opens the door, half a second later, his face is full of understanding, and he holds out his arms. I fall into them easily.
"Oh, Jess, I'm sorry too... I shouldn't have done that. I was totally out. You at least have to dump this Robbie guy before we kiss again!" He laughs awkwardly.
"Ha, yeah.." I reply, stepping out of his embrace just as quickly as I stepped into it. "Look, we really need to have a proper talk. The talk I should of had with you earlier, instead of being stupid and just asking if you liked me."
"Um, OK..." He says. He goes to sit on the bed. I join him, and we turn, facing each other. Staring deep into his eyes, I sigh.
"Zach, I want you to know that... That I really do love Robbie. And that I'm not going to be dumping him anytime soon, sorry. I'm gonna go live with him in Edinburgh." Tears well up in my eyes, and I see similar wetness in his. "But, understand, Zachy-babey, I'll always love you. Deep down, in my heart of hearts, I never stopped loving you either." And then I make a huge mistake. The second one in ten months.
I lean forward, and so does he, and our lips meet in the middle. His arms snake around me, and before I know it... I am staying the night..