The summer that passed was a funny one. Not the laughable kind that make your sides hurt, though there were moments like those, but the type that makes myself chuckle when I look back on it now. I've come to experience so many things without even realizing it in such a short period of time. I've gone through so many emotions, that now I feel emotionless with the actions that I've taken. I never thought I'd become like this; promiscuous, thoughtless, heartless, selfish, the list goes on and on under the CON column. Being the optimist that I like to think I am, I'd say the PROs listed from this change are: more confident, self-assured, expressive, active. Though, the true question is: Am I happy? The kicker is I just don't know but it makes me feel good. I visited a psychic perchance, perhaps to get a laugh or two. Instead, I was faced with news of myself that I thought I could bury deep inside, hoping no one would ever find it. I will not delve into what she said too much, but one thing that struck me was when you said that I've been doing the wrong things because it felt good. Shall I add to the CON list Hedonism as well? I'll admit, I have changed but I don't think it's a bad thing. All my life, I've been restricted, held onto too tightly, without a voice, and for once, I've decided to take the reins of life and steer it myself. Sure, I've gone through bumps and such but at least they were my own. As they say, "Experience is the word they give for mistakes". Everything just feels overwhelming, but it feels good that now it's my decisions to make. And somehow, even at my darkest moments, somehow, I know I'll get through it.

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